Storms Don't Last Forever

Don was here in KL to visit after being away for 5 months. He has since left me to go back to work. When he was here, we did so many things - catch up with family and friends, eat, hang out with each other and even went on a short weekend holiday. After spending weeks together 24/7, letting him go back to Perth, Australia was the hardest thing. We've visited each other many times over the course of our long distance relationship. I've learned to turn off my emotions and not burst into tears. I went on a staycation with some friends. I mentioned that I wanted to kick off my wanderlust, but really it was just a distraction for my first weekend alone without Don. It was a long drive back and the van we were in had a complete tv and good sound system. Is it, me or do you watch the most random things on road trips? Haha, on the way back, we watched Adele Royal Albert Hall concert on DVD. Of course, that triggered many unforeseen emotions. Oh, Adele! The things you make me feel..

Watching Adele's concert in the car

Listening to Adele made me miss my relationship. I miss Don. I miss him so much. I hate not having a clear indication of our future. I want him now, here with me or me with him. I hate that we have to go through visas, family customs to be together. There's nothing concrete stopping us from being together. It's really frustrating. I've been keeping it together, but my emotions got the best of me. I broke down. My sweetheart, Don managed to calm his overly emotional (and dramatic) girlfriend. After listening to Don wise words of wisdom. I felt bad and selfish. I often forget that I am not the only going through this long distance. It's the both of us. He has bad days too. When I cry and whine about the distance, Don gets upset because he feels helpless because there's nothing he can do. How he tells me to cheer up is to appreciate whatever I am doing now because it will be the last time I do these things alone. I need to learn how to managed my emotions better and not put so much pressure on Don.

I am a firm believer of this quote. I posted it on my Instagram a few months back, a day before our last visit (before this current one). It gave me a glimmer of hope for  things to be better. Storms don't last forever. The storm we're going through now will die down and we will have clear, beautiful skies soon.

How do you deal with long distance heartaches? Do you cry and whine to your SO? Or, deal with it on your own?

xx

Written for LDR Blog Network