Things They Don't Tell You When You Are in a LDR (Post holiday blues)

The first couple days back after being with Don 24/7 for days is the hardest. I was so lost and pined for him. People always talk about how good it is to see your partner after months apart and spending quality time together, but they fail to mention, what happens when we have to say goodbye for the umpteenth time.

We have said goodbyes at airports many times and it is still the worst feeling ever. Every time i go through customs - i look like a wreck, make-up less, tears stained face, which leads me to have more security checks causing me more stress. It takes a while for you to get back into your routine. Your body and mind are still in a limbo from getting comfortable with your periodical life with your partner. It's not an on and off button, it's a winding machine to get back into your routine.

Whenever people learn that I am in a long distance relationship. They will never fail to mention that it's hard, it's not easy or it's a BIG commitment. When I asked advice from people who have been in long distance relationships. Hoping for a different answer, I still get the same default answer. It's hard. It's not easy and it's a big commitment. I KNOW.

What they don't tell you that you learn to keep promises. Before any trip to see each other, we will make sure to have two dates/plans locked in when we see each other next. Having dates locked in, gives us a sense of security and keeping to these promises not only prove our commitment to each other but also our integrity as a person and our relationship. It may sound easy, but trying to find dates that suit our schedule is hard. By sticking to this date, even though they're a 1-2 months away. It shows commitment from both parties. 

They also don't tell you about the expectations. I have been ruined and disappointed by expectations. It's a natural thing to expect a lot of things from people. With Don and our LDR, i know better not to let expectations get in the way of our relationship. Somehow when there are no expectations, we communicate better. Every day at work, i find cool links/videos/articles, i would bombard his Facebook message with them. Then i would go home and ask him about him. "Baby! Did you read that article I  send you? Did you watch the video I send you??" I would often get a disappointing No. Don't get it wrong, it's not because he doesn't want to read them, but he is busy with a thing call #LIFE to read my 3284 links, videos and articles i send. So now, i send him links he would appreciate and enjoy more, so i don't get disappointed. 

The last thing they don't tell you is the anticipation. This anticipation goes inside your body every day 24/7 until the next time you will meet. Sometimes it consumes me because i miss him so much. Every time we say goodbye at the airport, i immediately start a countdown to the next time we will meet. That feeling to see the numbers going down, it's the best. When that day comes, i get so nervous and have crazy butterflies in my stomach, no matter how tired i am on the flight, i can't sleep. Everything disappears when i walk out the gate and see him smiling at me. All the anticipation, nerves and butterflies go away. It makes all of the above worth it.