I am driven by goals. By achievements. By excel sheets and everything black and white. I can be a little straight. But! haha, if the rules and regulations dont go my way, i will work my way around it. I have a life plan and know what i want.
Had a very interesting conversation with my brother the other day. I hardly get to hang out with my brother - him having a VERY active 19months baby girl and recently a new baby boy. He is busy with work, tired and overwhelmed with two babies in the house.
We were in the car on the way home and he asked me.
Adik, what do you want?
I dunnoh, new futsal shoes.
Seriously...what do you want? It cant be the only thing you want.
Thats what i really want right now.
Adik, there has to be something more, you want than futsal shoes...
*Adik means little sibling
With him saying that, i told him what i really wanted. I want a career (build my brand, have my own digital tech company and etc) and hopefully in due time have my own family amongst other wants in my life. He shot me down by saying - those are long-term goals. Those dont count! Things you want now...not what you need, but want!
I was confused. Who the hell focuses on wants when needs are obviously more practical and more logical? Was borderline between annoyed and angry because i couldnt answer his question! I am the 5 year plan girl, i know what i want. Next day at work, i told myself to take 10 minutes to sit and ponder about what i want. Well, after 10 minutes... the only thing i wrote (totes lying here, i created a new board on my Pinterest with "Kay Ones" <- i tried to be cute and punny, didnt really work out) was new futsal shoes. Told myself to continue during lunch.
I forgot about it the whole day until my drive home. For some reason, i didnt feel like listening to music and wanted to get lost in my own thoughts. It was perfect, cant believe i am saying this but i was a little grateful for the crazy Friday traffic jam. I managed to figured out what i want.
I WANT...
#1- Futsal shoes
#2- Better sleep
Its not to say i have trouble sleeping, but i dont sleep well. :( With that said #3
#3- Be able to wake up earlier and get good coffee before going to work.
No more instant coffee or nescafes.
#4- Be with Don in the same country.
#5- Have set lunch meals prepared for me every day.
So i dont have to think of what to eat during lunch and not spend RM15 on mediocre sandwiches.
#6- Upgraded laptop
hate Don for pointing out that my laptop is slow, it was working fine for me before. Now that i know my laptop is slow, i get little frustration tantrums when it acts up.
#7- Clearer skin
#8- Alexander Wang Diego in Gold studs
#9- Givenchy Antigona in black
#10- LV Petit bucket bag
As i got towards #10 i told myself to stop... this is why i dont indulge in what i want!!! Legit wants are #1-5.
What do you want?
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