series of unfortunate events

There has been a series of unfortunate events going lately that is hitting too close to home for me (LIKE LITERALLY TOO CLOSE TO HOME)

First before i continue, whenever an unfortunate event/war/strike/terror attack and etc, i usually just take the back sit, watch it happen and keep my opinions to myself or...my parents or SB or my girlfriends. I dont want to sound oblivious, there are too many idiots out there saying things they think they know but really they dont know shit. It pisses me off that everytime an unfortunate event/war/strike/terror attack and etc happens, somehow....Muslims are to blame. I do read the news and keep up with things that are going around the world. 

The only time i ever spoke publically (to the internet word) about something was the Boston bombing last year. i was really upset by that because i have ran many marathons and my family are all marathon runners. It sucks to have that tiny fear when you are running to what is supposed to be a fun thing.

MH370 definitely hit me hard. When i first heard about the news (on Facebook) i was scared. I was thinking, SHIT, i am away from home...and the only way i can go back home is by plane!!! I had a moment of panic and had calm myself down. I always use Malaysia Airlines whenever i travel. My mom retired at Malaysia Airlines. she gets staff discount, so we ALWAYS and ONLY take MH because we get cheaper rates and out of loyalty. i only take Airasia when i have to pay for my own airfare, hehe.

i got my first dose of how ugly the media can be with MH370, which is really funny considering the fact that i studied Mass media and communications for 5 years! i would wake up every morning, have my breakfast while watching the news and at the same time, i would get updates from my dad telling me what Malaysian media is updating them. THEY ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM ONE ANOTHER. I was confused to which to believe... One morning i woke up, my housemate who was watching the news, heard me brushing my teeth, rushed to the toilet to tell me, the plane was hijacked 30 minutes after it took off!! i was in disbelief and i asked my dad, he said it was not hijacked after 30 minutes. What news back in Malaysia said was hijack is not ruled out. Tell me how to react when your Australian friends talk about the tragedy? i couldnt even defend Malaysia because i will sound stupid with my facts when the "right" facts is being aired on TV as we speak. Same when my classmates were talking about the tragedy, i pretended to drink my coffee and looked uninterested.

I felt it even more sad...when i found out one of my friends's brother (from Uitm) was on the flight and one of the crew. I cannot imagine what her family is going through right now... Usually i would not say anything if an unfortunate event happen to anyone on my newsfeed, again its not because i dont care or being oblivious, it just... i dont want to say the wrong things (as many other idiots do). But this time, i had to, i remember being fairly close to her during our time in Melaka, i had to say something, i send her a message. i didnt expect a reply, but i got one from her and i was in tears. She is so strong and accepting to what has happened.

Another sad passing is cancer fighting Ami Schaheera. I have been a silent reader of hers for years...back to the Livejournal days. i am so so so so so so sad she passed. i always thought she would be a cancer survivor, but sadly, god loves her more. She was so patient and strong about her cancer, its unbelievable. She is also one of my inspirations to start eating healthy. She wrote an entry about eating cancer free/cancer prevention food and i started being aware of these kind of foods. Really sad. Al-fatihah to her. Below is a picture of her and my sister from my sister's instagram.

Last series of unfortunate event is.... the consciously uncoupling of Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin. To be honest, i am surprised that they last 10 years, Gwyneth Paltrow has hinted thay were having problems in many interviews over the years. I feel so sad....because Coldplay is my favourtite band of all time and knowing they are separating makes me sad. This is me being selfish, i know this coming album is going to be good and its going to be fresh heartbreak songs. ITS GOING TO WIN AWARDS LIKE ADELE's 21 ALBUM!

I am grateful that i am still here today. I am healthy. My family is healthy. My cats are healthy. My friends are healthy. i am grateful for all of that. Syukur-alhamdullilah.